“alone&together” by alan and roe moss

Four ambiguous, anthropomorphic people cuddle each other, gathered around a realistic painted heart held by the centermost person. Each figure is a different color and body shape. They are lit by a warm, golden light radiating from the heart, contrasted against the darkness around them.
alone&together together . alone . a bodymind carved into mindbodies that twist & tumble & tangle but can never quite meet can never quite meat shared flesh riddled with the prints of our reaching for each other your& neurotic neuro- with my& mangled -muscular Finding pulling twisting at the seams between your&body & my&body your& same electric pulses discharging tenderness & tension as you& hold me mold me mind me closer
mind me, my lover, my darling, my prince mind your way winding & reminding pathways through shared breast hold me with our arms & hold me with our breath do you mind? do you mind if i turn down the lights? turn down the music? close my eyes & turn down the outersenses
& tune in to the innersenses closing mindbodydistance between you&me contradicting the bodyminddistance that tells me& you&shouldberighthere always&forevertogether forever & always
alone does it make the s e p a r a t i o n hurt any less? knowing that your&eyes are my&eyes my&hands are your&hands your&lungs are my&lungs & yet
your&sight isnot my&sight your&voice isnot my&voice your&breath isnot my&breath we will never seethesame / feelthesame / sharethesame sight/touch/taste/sense my-gaze in your-gaze your-hand in my-hand my-breath in your-breath senseless senses sustaining division never never fully together always&forever alone
our romance has a bitter sense of humor a love laughing at its own reflux coughed up out & over onto the scribblings of a sonnet written for a lover never held & never to hold a maddening paradox of erotic can-they cant-they/should-they shouldnt-they i miss you& most when youre& right here

alan and roe moss (No pronouns)
alan and roe moss are members of ileim moss, a transMad queercrip plural system seeking to make space for exploring plurality outside the confines of pathology and respectability. ileim’s work can be found at mixmoss.neocities.org.