“the duality of void” by nat raum

in sunlight i adore you and tell you
twenty-seven times at least. i can’t process
your fantasy face when you are upside-down,
looking up from bosom cushions, but i can still 
see the citrine coronas of your irises in my
deepest-buried sunlit daydreams come alive.

(on the latter, i still am in love, but my past tells
me more awe is superfluous and dangerous—
it’s never served me well before.)

and in lamplight i mount you with a pro wrestler’s
swagger, in leather and in glitter with sweaty
mangled mane and all. our valley of the end lies far
beyond san fernando, my love—i am taking you
to every airport and seaboard town you’ve ever
 so much as sighed at, and then back again.

(on the former, i still want to flip over onto you
like in my most depraved daydreams—
i just don’t see why we should limit ourselves.)

nat raum (They/them)
nat raum (b. 1996) is a disabled artist, writer, and genderless disaster from Baltimore, MD. They’re a current MFA candidate and also the editor-in-chief of fifth wheel press. Past and upcoming publishers of their writing include Olney Magazine, perhappened, CLOVES, and trampset. Find them online: natraum.com/links.